i have no clue

why is it that when we try to get things to work, they seem to blow up in our faces and when we don't try at all we have the most success? i can't read her mind. i don't know why she is acting like this. hell, she doesn't even know. so i try to be sensitive and caring and it's like yelling at the wind. useless. and then to further complicate matters, my ex popped back up as well as someone who i thought i had lost...
nothing is certain but death and taxes.
probus nox

new thoughts

so there i was, completely unprepared for the events that lead up to this. she had been in front of me for years. the last three to be exact. how did i not know that everything i would ever need was right in front of me? i guess it could be linked to my ego... my constant quest for something better. my everpresent thought that i might be able to do better. my thought that i might miss something great. but then i realized that unless i took a chance on somthing, i would end up with nothing. it's funny how the girl who i never would've thought that i would date again, has become my best friend, my lover, my everything. so here's to my future, my ambition, and our dreams..
Probus Nox