honesty

why is it that when our lives are going the best, we always feel like we should do something to ruin it? is it that we don't have our own permission to be happy? or is it that we feel that we don't deserve happiness. i have the best girlfriend in the whole world. she loves sports, she likes my friends, she loves my family, she is totally committed to me but for some reason i still try to find a reason to be unhappy. in other news, i actually started college. i also found motivation to attend. my motivation? becoming an officer in the U.S. military and flying their helicopters. if i can focus on the thought of flight, i can make it through college. the biggest obstacle to my success? myself.....
probus nox