a certain way

life is great. (insert sarcasm) holly wants to jump my bones but she has a boyfriend. sarah wants me to go out with her but she lives in florida. rachel wants a relationship but she is in idaho. the woman i want is married and has died as i know her. i thought that when i got out of high school my life would be different. this is the same type of drama and bullshit that i have experienced when in high school. will the madness never cease? i was hoping that i could rise above this type of existence. maybe i should volunteer to go to the desert with my comrades. at least over there i would only have to worry about getting shot or blown up. the simple life. i am on a quest for meaning. the search continues